Mental Health Day

Hey everyone!

So today was supposed to be my extra long day of classes. I was supposed to start at 1:15 in Archaeology of the Greek Bronze Age, then move over to Modern Canadian Poetry at 2:45 and then end the day with Hellenistic Greek History at 4:15. However, I decided that it would be more important to take a Mental Health Day and head over to my Mother's house to babysit my 2 year old cousin. And since I don't have any classes tomorrow, I'm spending the night and going to watch her again tomorrow too. The reason she is down this weekend is because my Aunt works for RDS as a runner and has to work some weekends at the Centre Bell. So since there are tons of sporting events this weekend, she's working and I get to watch my cousin.

Anyway so I spent my day in complete boredom attempting to study and take care of my cousin. I was supposed to bake this delicious Choco Peanut Butter Cake (Thank you Loads for the Recipe Athena :D It has become a staple for me and the fam! ) and I was also supposed to assemble a Black Forest Cake for my Aunt's bday. Neither happened because taking care of a 2 year old doesn't really allow time to do things like baking. Especially since both would mean that I needed to use the mixer and it's noisy D:

So yeah, no desserts for Rae D:   Maybe tomorrow.

What I really want to do is start writing because my Prose is looking very lonely just sitting on my desktop, and it's screaming "FINISH ME!!!!" But I have other priorities apparently. I need to prepare for my midterms that are happening next week ): and I have a Final essay due next Thursday and a small written assignment for Geography due on Wednesday ): So yeah, I'm really busy even though I so don't want to work on homework.

That's it I guess. Oh, I was told by one of my close friends that I should ask out my friend, because we would be awesome together. Which just proves the point that everyone has been making. o.O She just said that I should do it properly and privately. Which is what I was going to do in the first place but the thing is to find the courage and the time to do it at. AND then this morning, on my way out of the house, I was told by Amanda that there is no way on this green earth that she will allow me to date him. And if we ever do start dating, she will kill me and kick his ass. Apparently she is being a protective sister and only wants the best for me but w/e. I just think she's being a major Douche Hat. (yup, I invented a new word yesterday, well I thought I did until I went onto Urban Dictionary. It's a mixture of Douche and Ass Hat only, since they are combined, they are incredibly bad)

Is it right for siblings, younger or older, to be over protective to the extreme and set rules on who their sisters and/or brothers can or can't date?

Time to Catch Up

Salut everyone!

So this is the first time I've been on the internet in about a week. That's right, no facebook, no email, no twitter, no blog etc. I have not been on the internet at all in a week! I know, insane right? And you're probably thinking, Why Rae would you avoid the internet for a week? The thing is, I didn't do it on purpose. I've just been too lazy to open up my laptop this week in lieu of some reading, tv and studying. I've had a few quizzes that I've been studying for and some other things that have kept me from going online too. So yeah... It was hard to not go on facebook for an entire week, but not as bad as I thought it would be. :)

During this past week, I have been helping with the plans for my Nana's 100th birthday party. Well okay, I've been helping with the cake plans for the party because two of my mother's cousins that been planning it. They asked all the grandchildren to take control of certain aspects. My Aunt Kim has to find the balloons to decorate the bar with, another cousin buys the flowers, and my mom gets to make the cake. Mom, in turn, asked me for some advice and help in making the cake. So yeah, (I think it was her asking. It might have been her telling me to help her, but whatever Our relationship is rocky on a good day.) So this grand occasion will be taking place two days before her actual 100th bday (so Feb 20th instead of her Feb 22nd bday) and we're having it as a brunch (11-2pm) at a local bar....... 0.o

Crazy right? Why would anyone want to celebrate a 100th birthday at a bar?  Apparently Nana will love it, because she loves playing the slots and she loves the bar. BUT My grandfather and all of us on his side of the family tree believe that it is a stupid idea and that it would be much more enjoyable at a restaurant or hall or, heck, even the legion. BUT no. Whatever, we're going. Mostly because my grandmother told us we have to go, and make the most of it for Nana's sake.

Oh umm, my Nana is my mother's father's mother. So yeah, she's my Nana Reid :) and as old as she is, she is still filled with spunk and awesome sauce ;) From what my grandparents have told me, there will be a full page (or at least an article) in the Gazette on Tuesday Feb 22 about my Nana, and Laurie Graham (I think that's her name. either way it's the "hott blonde weather lady" on Pulse News. according to my grandfather) will announce my Nana's bday on Feb 22 during the lunchtime weather report. SO that is is really amazing. Yay Nana!

Creatively, I've been in a slump. STILL! D:

I know right, When will it ever end?!?!?! Well I've been asking myself the same thing for a long time, but I believe that I see the light at end of the tunnel and (this goes against all the Looney Toon cartoon episodes that I've watched BUT) I'm heading towards the light. I think, that if I were to be able to stop my dreams from confusing me and putting me into a fog that I'd be able to write something meaningful.

I have been thinking lately, with Valentine's Day coming up, What would be the best way to spend a romantic evening with your special someone? or, at least, What would be the best way to spend a first date?

For me, it'll be something laid back and chill. All I would need to make an evening romantic would be a Nice meal at a sports bar or restaurant (Like Jack Astor's or Le Cage or something) with a good game on (either NFL or NHL I'm not very picky) and some yummy drinks. (I'm thinking something with Vodka or Tequila) Of course, this would require it to be during football/hockey season. So during the summer time (only time where there isn't a game on) I'd like a Nice dinner and then a movie or a walk down around the river or the old port or something like that. Something awesome like that. Is that being too picky?

Oh and to update you all on the romance side of things. Nope, I haven't asked him own yet. I know, What am I waiting for right? Well the truth is, we're really good friends and I don't want to screw that up because, well who am I kidding here.I screw everything up. So yeah. As soon as I get out of my head and stop feeling like a completely useless p.o.s I'll most likely ask him out. One last time. Because I have done it before. But the other few times, I was totally drunk or an emotional wreck and he turned me down because he knew that I'd regret it later because I wasn't thinking clearly. Which is totally honourable. So I'll ask him out, one last time, completely sober and emotion free and if he turns me down again because our friendship is too important to wreck well then c'est la vie and that'll be the end of that. At least then I'll be able to have some closure and get over it. maybe.

So one last thing before I hit the hay; my song of the week is "Because Of You" by Kelly Clarkson. She is just amazing, I love her voice So powerful and yet so dainty at the same time, Quite honestly she makes me want to cry and belt out the lyrics all at the same time! This particular song is so powerful and really speaks to me esp. about my relationship with my parents. I suggest, if you haven't already heard it, that you go onto youtube and watch the video and actually listen to the lyrics. The song is absolutely amazing and PERFECT for this week!

Have a Great Week everyone!

So. Much. Snow!!!

So I woke up this morning, like always hitting the snooze on my cell phone alarm from 9am to about 10. All while listening to Virgin Radio Montreal and pretending to sleep. Since it's Wednesday, I know full well that I have to go into class for Environmental Geography. I was even excited when I heard that the Groundhog announced Spring is almost here! =D

So as I was getting ready to head upstairs to go onto Facebook before taking the bus and I get a phone call from my sister who had just left the house. Manda informs me that the snow is crazy high outside and that if I do not have to go to class that I should just stay home and shovel. Of course, any excuse not to go into Geography is an excuse I'll take. So I stay home and veg on the couch, watching some Doctor Who on Space =D and playing DC Universe Online (Such a good game btw!) 12pm I decide that I'm really hungry and so I put the oven onto 400 and grab some burritos from the freezer to have some lunch.

An hour later I am fed and not so eager to get dressed and head outside to shovel. But I figure that I have to at some point so might as well be now. And Oh. My. God. there was just So Much Snow!!! Don't get me wrong, I have lived on the South Shore of Montreal  all of my life and have seen more snow that what fell today. But I have an eight car driveway with no car port, or garage or anything PLUS I have to shovel the entire thing. Well not really, only enough for 6 cars but that is a lot of work for one person, believe me.

Standing on my stairs looking out towards the street.

After 45 minutes of shoveling, cursing, and tearing (I had my contacts on so I tear up a lot) I have about half of the drive way done. Just enough so that if my car was in the driveway, I could walk all around it and still have room behind it.

Standing halfway down my driveway looking back towards the house

My bedroom window & front of my house

 I also had to be very careful when shoveling on where I threw the snow because I sleep in the basement and my only source of natural light for my bedroom comes in from one window. The past couple of years, when Amanda shovels, my window has been covered with snow from the driveway. I had to move most the the snow from the driveway further from the house, so that it wouldn't pile against my window. Sadly it didn't really work out too well :s

So as I said, after 45 minutes of shoveling, I was completely frozen and looking forward to heading inside and vegging on the couch a bit and warming up. I technically could have stayed out longer and finished the driveway, But I couldn't feel my face. SO I went inside and enjoyed a bottle of water (mixed with Lemon-Lime Crystal Light) and did a few more quests with my Villian on DC Universe (She is awesome!  I made her look like a Erinyes from Greek Mythology)

3:30 rolls around and I figure that I might as well head back outside, especially since Dad will be home from work around 5:20. Which gives me plenty of time to finish the driveway. So I headed back outside, and to my dread, there is a layer of snow covering what I already shoveled. D=

So I quickly get ride of all that, and then get to work on the heavy stuff.  And of course, I take a few breaks along the way to shake my fist at the plow that barrels down three times each side of the street, and thus pushing more snow into my driveway! D= (Curse you Plow Guy!!!)

But then I get back to work.

My tree in the front yard. Covered in snow!

 I am proud to say that I was able to get down to the cement in several areas of my driveway. Removing huge thick slabs of ice from the drive.

D= THEY WERE SO HEAVY!!!!! D=

(I wish I had a picture of how huge these slabs were! It was crazy!)

I realize now, however, that the time I took scraping the ice off the driveway was a complete waste of my time and energy!

This pic didn't turn out too well :s  I'm standing at the street

 So after another hour and a half, and three passes of the plow. I am done shoveling. But I was concerned that my car (a Mazda 3) would not fit!

It did though! Thank Gawd! =D

At this point, I head back inside to warm up and play some more with my DC Universe, Villian! (Oh her name, because Erinyes was taken 0.o , is Epiphaneia)

Dad walks through the door at 5:20 and I give him the choice of Meatloaf and Onion Rings or Meatballs and Rice for supper. He, of course, chooses Meatloaf and Onion Rings. So I finish my quest (Epiphaneia had to help Trigon break Raven's mind and control her so that he can take over the world! hehe I had to defeat Donna Troy, Starfire, Cyborg, Nightwing and eventually Raven herself. I actually was a bit conflicted because I did the same quest line the other day, with my hero, and I had to free the Titans and get rid of Trigon :s Either way, this game is AWESOME!!!! =D I play on the computer, but you can also play on the PS3 ( I don't own one :s ) And you should try it, or buy it or whatever. IT IS AWESOME!!!! ) and start my meatloaf.

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What do I put in my Meatloaf, you ask?.... hehe well I'll tell you!

In a large bowl, I mix about a pound of mince meat with 4 extra hot pork sausages (out of the casing, of course) To this fab Meat mixture I had a package of onion soup mix, bread crumbs, Red pepper flakes, BBQ sauce, Worcestershire sauce and sometimes (not this time though) Montreal Steak Spice and Frank's Red Hot. Mix it all together and place it on aluminum foil in a pan and shape it into a loaf.

In another bowl, you'll want to make the sauce for on top of the loaf. I usually just take out my Ketchup, Mustard and Brown Sugar and go crazy mixing them together until I have enough of the mixture to cover my loaf all around. You'll want to have more Ketchup than mustard though, and about a tablespoon of Brown Sugar. Take the mixture and cover the loaf all around.

Place the pan into the oven at 375 for about 25-30 minutes. Have it rest for about 2-3 minutes once you take it out, and then slice and serve  =D

Now you might be wondering why I didn't put in any measurements. And that is because I never measure how much stuff I put in. I just go by what looks good and add more if I want. I usually end up adding more breadcrumbs though because I added too much BBQ sauce. Oh and if you'd prefer, instead of BBQ sauce, use HP Sauce. I don't like the taste, but Dad does. And thankfully I keep forgetting to buy more when I go grocery shopping so there is none in the house =) And for the Ketchup sauce for on top, just go with what looks and tastes right. If you don't want it, then by all means don't add it. But trust me, even those who dislike Ketchup (namely me) will adore this sauce when paired with the Meatloaf!

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So unfortunately, around 8:30pm I believe that I hear a plow passing. I promptly curse and inform my sister that I AM NOT going outside to shovel again by myself. So she pouts, explains that she was just on her way to grab a shower, gets a glare from my father and then stalks off to her room to retrieve her coat and scarf. Once we get outside, however, we realize that what I thought had been a street plow, was merely the neighbor with his snow blower and the driveway plow that several of the households on our street pay for. Not Dad though. o.O "Why bother paying someone to clear my driveway when I have two daughters living with me" D=    Grrrrrr..........  Anyway so we do a fast clear around the car and down the side of the hedge where the snow has piled up bad, and come inside.

Shivering, hungry and thirsty. I decide to grab another Lemon-Lime Crystal Light and some of my favourite store bought cookies! =D And write this post. All in all it was an OK day. Lots of Gaming was done! (Epiphaneia gained 6 levels today! ;)    )  I got in
a lot of exercise and I avoided a boring lecture in the blow freezing basement of FG. (How I hate thee FG C-070!)

I'm off to dream of hott men and beaches! Night All! And remember to dress in layers! It's cold outside and layers works better than dressing in a heavy coat.

Oh boi, It's been awhile :s

 I spent this afternoon and evening with the greatest girl I have ever met, and she mentioned that I should think about writing again. So Sweetie, this post is for you :)

I'd like to start with "Sorry guys" D: I know it has truly been a long time since my last post. But honestly I have been in a bit of a writing and creative slump. Which is an incredibly crazy concept because there is never a time where I am not thinking about writing or reading. But honestly I haven't even read since finals last term, sooooo around the beginning of December. Although I will admit, that I've been buying books like crazy! Bookstores are my weakness, and I'm usually good with my money, except when it comes to books.

My recent purchases:

1.Star of the Morning by Lynn Kurland
2. Lover Mine by J R Ward
3. Goddess of the Sea by P C Cast
4. The Three Musketeers by Alexandre Dumas

Now I have to admit that the first three are categorized as Romance novels and I haven't read any of them yet. Truthfully, the only reason I bought The Three Musketeers is because it was on sale at Infigo and I've always wanted to read it. And my sister's have been enjoying  Cast's teen series and when I found out that she wrote Romances too, and read the back of the book, I got excited and decided to try it out. I have no opened the book yet! Not even to glimpse at the pages, print, font, etc. NOTHING! I think that maybe the world might be coming to an end! :o But the series in general seems to be about women from the present, being sucked somehow into the past and/or mystical/mythological world. This one is about a Marine going back in time and experiencing this reverse Little Mermaid life. Weird, but really intriguing :D


 Ward is a fantastic author and Lover Mine is something like the eight book in the Black Dagger Brotherhood series. I ADORE J R Ward! I flipped through the pages of this book before I had to hand it over to my Aunt and O.M.G. I can't even explain the hotness of this novel. I received a text from my Aunt the other day and she rates it as a definite 10+ (I guess I'll have to explain my rating system eventually, or else these gradings make no sense :s ) 

I AM about halfway through Kurland's novel and it is really more of a fantasy novel than anything else. Think DragonLance with this one people :) It is the first of the series and I am hoping for much more from the story than what I am getting. It is the first time I am reading one of Kurland's books, but I, for the most part, like reading new and established authors to broaden my literary horizons. Don't get me wrong, she is establishing a truly magical world with magic swords that are held by the king of the kingdom, and beautiful warrior/assassin women who are reluctant and hesitant of magic and authority in general. I am hoping that because it is the first in the series that she is establishing the world and thus in the next one will move more quickly and be more interesting. But I dunno, it really isn't a Romance novel in my opinion. So currently, it is a 4 with the potential of being a 6 IF they even get back to the castle and Morgan stops complaining about how awful her companions are.

The Rating System

My Aunt and I developed a rating system for our novels. [because we share a passion for everything Paranormal, Fantasy, and Romance. and thus share our books] This rating system is between 0 and 10. We have yet to give anything lower than 2. Mostly because I think we are being generous.

A 0, theoretically, would be a book that is so boring that you cannot finish it or even stomach reading it at all. For me this would include anything from Nora Roberts ( I just can't stand her as an author. Sorry)

Anything roughly from a 2 to a 5, we consider "Fluff". This is where the writing might have been good, but there really wasn't a story there or any good romance scenes to make up for the bad story. Either way it most likely isn't something we would read again. And we might reconsider buying the author again too.

Whereas a 10 is what we like to call "Green Dragon". These novels have incredibly hott and steamy scenes that you cannot read  without getting flushed and are balanced with a fantastic story and witty comments. [Most of Ward's novels are listed as 10's and higher with us.] This rating is based on the An Aisling Grey, Guardian Series by Katie MacAlister. (Good books with steamy scenes and a tres fab storyline.)

Our Rating system, however, has to be reorganized because "Green Dragon" is no longer the best rating. Now it is a toss up between any novel by J R Ward or Sherrilyn Kenyon. [Both are great authors and Must Reads, in my opinion]

Let's get away from books now

This past week in Ancient Greek History, we've been learning about Alexander the Great and his rise to fame. I actually really love him and find these classes quite interesting. [Despite the fact that the prof is a major douche and openly admits to hating the Greeks.] One of the facts that really caught my attention in the last class was that Alex adopted many of the Persian concepts, policies etc. After Darius and Bessus' deaths, Alex became the self proclaimed King of the World and not only married the beautiful Persian Roxane, but also inherited and used Darius' harem. All 365 of them! This man was a GENIUS! He had a wife for each day of the year, that would have to follow him on his campaigns. I'm not saying that he slept with them all (well he probably did actually) but he was at least entertained by the all on a daily basis.

This got me thinking, that if I were a man, I'd totally want a harem of that size. First off, I hate most women. I have hardly any female friends, mostly because I hate to hear them whine, talk about their feelings, and just being all girlie. I'm physically and mentally allergic to it all. I am a truly a geek who LOVES Sci-Fi, Comic Books, Video/Computer Games and I'm a bit of a selective Tomboy at heart' I adore Football! (And have been known to stomach a hockey game or two. Although I'd rather watch it live and in person than on the TV. There is just something about being there in the midst of everything that makes it just that more interesting and entertaining.) So girls really annoy me for the most part. So if I were a man, I'd have to have a different wife for each day of the year so that I wouldn't end up as a serial killer or being divorced more times than I'd wash.



Posting this idea on Facebook, I got back several comments, esp. a few from my Tres Fab Gal Pal :) Through the span of our convo. we came across the idea of making a Harem filled with awesome and Hott men. Fiction, Non-Fiction, Dead or Alive. Doesn't matter. And assign a day of the year to each. I took it one step further and have been creating a photo gallery on Facebook to catalog of these men. Currently there is only 100 or so Men in the gallery, but everyday I'm adding more to the list. :) In a perfect world, my Harem would be amazing, if I do say so myself. ;)

Let's see. New Years Eve would be HOTT! With TrueBlood Hottie Alexander Skarsgard steaming things up ; )

And I sandwiched my Birthday between two Incredibly Drool inducing Ryan's!   Ryan Reynolds and Ryan Kwanten (Jason Stackhouse on TrueBlood). Three Days before my bday, I added Matthew Gray Gubler, because I ♥ The Gube :D  And for my Halfie I put CSI hottie, Eric Szmanda. For my actual Birthday, I have no idea who to put D: I have someone in mind but don't think that it would be appropriate to put him there seeing as how we are really good friends and he might take being placed in my Harem the wrong way. :s


BUT, like New Years Eve. Valentine's Day was a no Brainer :)

Being the incredible Sci-Fy Geek that I am. There is no one else I'd rather take me out on a hot, steamy, and romantic evening than the drool inducing, awe inspiring and adorable comedian David Tennant. Yes, that is right. The 10th (?) Doctor Who. (O.M.G. I ♥ Doctor Who. But I'll save that for another time)

So yeah, That is my Harem. : P

And I've realized that for my first post back, I sure have written a lot :D YAY Me!

I guess that is it for now. I have some reading to do for my Environmental Geography class. I have an online quiz I have to do tomorrow based on the readings and I haven't read them yet :s Oh well.  Maybe I'll do it in the morning, lol.

So I bid you all Adieu. Sending much Love, Happiness and Good Thoughts to you all!

I'd like to know: Have you read anything interesting lately? Or do you have any ideas about how to get out of a reading slump?

Music: My Absolute Faves

So one of the posts in the 30 posts in 30 days thing that I'm doing on my tumblr got me thinking. It asked me to post my favourite song, to which I replied I Don't Care by Fall Out Boy. Now this is completely correct because I absolutely adore that song, but it got me thinking that I have so many favourite songs that it cannot possibly be narrowed down to just one. Mostly because I have a favourite song for different genres, moods, occasions etc. So now I'm starting a list, and what better place to put said list than right here ;) So here goes:

song of all time: I Don't Care - Fall Out Boy
theme song for my life: What's My Age Again - Blink-182
romantic song: Don't - Elvis
lullaby: I don't want to live on the moon - Ernie on Sesame Street
country song: Goodbye Earl - Dixie Chicks
rock song: Call Me - Shinedown
punk song: Come as you are: Nirvana
rap song:  Stan - Eminem
song of the 80s: Here I go Again - Whitesnake
song of the 90s: Wannabe - Spice Girls
One hit wonder: What's Up - 4 Non-Blondes
Female musician: Pat Benatar
Male musician: Elvis Presley
All female group: Spice Girls
All male group: New Kids on the Block
song to sing while doing the dishes: MMMBop - Hanson
song to wake up to: You Make my dreams come true - Hall & Oats
song to sing a capella style: Can't Help Falling in Love - Elvis Presley
daddy/daughter dance: Butterfly Kisses - Bob Carisle

Okay so this list is like not completely finished, obviously. But this is a work in progress, and will be constantly added to as the mode or idea strikes me. and maybe it would be awesome to make some other lists, like movies, tv shows, books, authors etc... Just some food for thought, or actually it's more like some ideas for future posts.

Peace, Love and Happiness to all Bloggerverse!

A nonsensical cleansing and venting of sorts

Okay so honestly I must have something mentally wrong with me. And I don't just mean in general or something, even though I know that to be the complete truth. But I mean today especially and for the past few days. Mostly because I cannot even form simple sentences to get my point across without blanking out or freezing mid-thought without the words ever coming out of my mouth or even halfway to my mouth. I don't even form the words before I freeze up. It might just be nerves or the fact that I'm tired out of my mind but I think it might be more than that because coffee, food, air, exercise or even a simple shower cannot seem to get me to wake up out of this nonsensical kind of funk. And it is really starting to get the kids concerned... Well mostly Syd. She has been an absolute angel today since I explained to her what was going on. (before that she went so far as to throw a huge tantrum when I asked her to take a shower while I did Jared's homework....but now she's fine) I, on the other hand, cannot understand what is happening to me and I feel like a complete wreck..... I seriously had a dream last night that made no sense at the time, but now it makes so much sense that I am terrified. I dreamed that I was locked up in a hospital, well okay institution, because I was a danger to myself and others. First off, I have never been a threat to anyone unless they attacked me first. Okay there was that time in high school when I slapped Elo by accident and without thinking, but I didn't do it intentionally and it didn't even hurt. maybe just my hand and her pride. but besides that I have never been a threat or danger to anyone who didn't deserve it first. no matter what my parents think. I may have thought that I would want to kill myself, and I may think that because my life has done nothing but go to the shits that it means that I was never supposed to be on this planet and that I have nothing to gain from being here in this life. as if it is all a huge mistake. but those are just thoughts and nothing will even come out of them... it is just immature and irrational thoughts of the lost inner child from within a much more lost, jaded and mature adult............. And I honestly have no idea where I was going with this....... Oh yeah... I have no idea what is happening to me, or what my dream meant, or whatever. But I am terrified that it is going to get worse and that my aunt and uncle will notice and feel that I can't look after the kids anymore..... that would crush me to the extreme.. not only because I get paid to watch them, on the contrary that is the least of my worries. I'm mostly worried that the structure and balance that I receive here will be taken away and what is happening to me will only get worse.............

 

So I have all these concerned going on through my head and they are only made worse by everything that is happening around me and in my life. Everything is basically falling apart and I'm just a bystander who has to watch it all from the side lines and just do nothing..... So, completely mifted about my circumstances, I did something that I should have stopped before it happened or at least fixed before it became to late and messed things up so completely that I couldn't fix it at all.... I sent an email, since the only thing I trust myself to do at this moment in time is to express myself with words, on Sunday night. I don't think that the person I sent it to got it at all, or even if they did, that they would read it because well I don't deserve it. But I sent it anyway, in an attempt to fix something that should never have broke in the first place. I was a bitch, and I know it, and I will be eternally sorry. But I don't think it will help. As far as I know, I burned that bridge down so long ago  and to such an extreme that it cannot ever be repaired... for which I have no one but myself to blame and for that I am so angry that I cannot possibly explain it in words............. If by some grace of the goddess, or some luck with the internet fairies, the person I sent the email to reads this, then I just want to tell them again that I hate myself for everything that happened and I want to try to fix things because I miss having them around and I really wish we could be friends again. Not just because I need them or need to talk to them or anybody really, but because when we were friends I was kinda grounded and I could talk to them about anything and even though they didn't really understand what I was talking about, they tried to and tried to help and that always made it easier to deal with or to come out of with a sunny perspective or at least a positive one.

 

Anyway, enough venting for me and enough wasting time when I have work to do......

 

Peace, Love and Happiness to All!

 

                  Rae

Tons of Reading happening

Sault Bloggerverse!

I've been reading almost nonstop for what seems like forever, when in fact it has only been two, maybe three weeks and I have been devouring the last half of Kenyon's Dark-Hunter/Were-Hunter/Dream-Hunter series.I am completely serious when I say that Ms Kenyon is an incredibly fantastic and awe-inspiring author that is truly a gift to the world! I've read, geez, it must be six or seven books in the last month and am completely saddened by the fact that I am halfway through "Bad Moon Rising" which is the latest out in the series. The next book comes out at the end of the year I think, maybe later.

But I know I have been saying this in the last couple of posts, but If you have not already heard of Ms Kenyon and her series, then you should totally get on the bandwagon and join us. If you love or even like to read paranormal romance novels, with an added twist of ancient Greek myth, then you will love these books and this series!

I'm not exactly sure which series I will continue reading once I am done "Bad Moon Rising". I think I might read another of the True Blood series, but then again maybe I'll continue J.R. Ward's Black Dagger Brotherhood's series. Or some of the other 30 books I have unread on my shelf :S Ohhhh boy, this is exactly what happens when classes and school gets in the way of reading lol

Take care out there and remember that by reading you are enriching your mind and taking yourself out of the hustle and bustle of your everyday life. Enjoy a good book today and be much happier tomorrow!

Peace, Love and Happiness to all!