A few days ago I posted something incredibly personal, because it was on my mind and bothering me, and hoped that the fact I was addressing and attempting to come to terms with a problem I have, it would stop playing such an important part of my everyday life. Unfortunately, it has just come to haunt me over the last few days and emphasize the truth in my declaration. Now I know that this and the last few post make me seem all negative, down, depressed or whatever, but really I'm not. I'm just a tad upset as of late and am hoping for the positive to come back into my life. Things ARE starting to turn around for me, but I've realized some betrayals as of the last two or three days and they have been really bothering me, especially today. So before I go on with the top ten list that I have planned, I just want to catch ya'll up on the drama, so please just bear with me
Remember the guy I was texting back in April? Well I haven't spoken to him in over two weeks, and haven't texted with him since my birthday weekend, so umm June 18th or so. I was totally crushing on him, and not just "Wow he's hott!" Nah I mean the whole kit and kabootle. I'd have steamy dreams about him and the future and all that jazz. Even though I knew I wouldn't do anything about those feelings, it was just nice to have them and have someone to flirt with...... Such a bad idea...... Not only do I find out from my best friend a week later (when she went camping with my sister and a whole bunch of their friends) that he's been texting SEVERAL seventeen and younger girls, I find out that one of them was MY underage sister. I knew, because I'm not a complete idiot, that the two of them had been texting, talking and hanging out, but I trusted my sister because she knew, actually better than I did, how I felt. I also figured that she'd tell me. Nope, she finally admitted to it this afternoon, over a private facebook message, the whole thing, believing that I had no idea what was happening. The only reason she told me about it, was because she found out he's apparently back with his ex and she's kinda falling for his charm.....
Am I hurt? Kinda, yeah. Not devastated or anything like that. I've realized that I'm not even mad at my sister, just hurt that she didn't trust me or respect me enough to tell me right away and to my face. I'm also angry at myself that I would fall so easily for a douche hat like that who obviously enjoys playing with girls minds as a means of stroking his own ego and making himself feel better. Thank the gods above that it never went any farther than texting between me and him, and I pray to those same gods that my sister had enough brains inside her head to keep it platonic too.
Okay, so rant over. I'm over it all now and more importantly I'm over him. (My bestie will be so happy when I tell her lol. She's been trying to get me to focus on someone else since April. Mission accomplished. Finally lol)
Now onto the main topic of the day. Getting to know me better. :)
As a future award winning author ;) and someone who values open and honest relationships. I feel it is important that my life is like an open book. I admit, that some things should be kept private and behind closed doors. But I believe that if you're open and honest, no one can hurt you and throw things back into your face. For instance if I were currently an award winning author and pseudo-celebrity (because obviously my novels and series will have to be made into movies and television series) : P I would not want the tabloids or press to try and kibosh me with anything that happened in my past or something that happened in my life. If my life is an open book, that wouldn't happen without me first admitting to it. Thus avoiding the cause for any kind of scandals and losing the faith of my fans, family and friends.
So without further ado, 10 Things No One Knows About Me
1. I simply adore The Wizard of Oz. Both the movie and the book. No, I think adore is not strong enough of a statement. I am enamoured by it. I have enjoyed watching, singing along and reciting all of the lines of the movie since I was a toddler, and actually have watched it so many times that I broke two VHS tapes, and almost melted my DVD. Judy Garland is simply amazing and I totally adore her to pieces because of her role as Dorothy Gale. I also really really want a Cairn Terrier so that I can name it Toto and carry it around in a basket with me where ever I go.
2. I am a complete and total sci fi, fantasy and superhero geek. I have read as many DC and Marvel comics (The ones about the X-Men are my faves) as I can lay my hands on (most of them, if not all of them, bought by my father when he was growing up). I have read tons of DragonLance books as a teenager, as well as tons of other fantasy novels. And I grew up on Star Trek (complete TGN fanatic!), Star Wars (Love me the original trio), and Doctor Who :) (David Tennant ftw!)
3. I love to bake, and have loved it since I started baking when I was ten. I can successfully make tons of different kinds of cookies, cakes, breads, muffins, cupcakes, cobblers, pies etc. You name it and I can more than likely bake it. I actually wanted to be a pastry chef when I was in high school and cegep. But found out when I graduated from high school that I needed to be eighteen to get into the chef school in Montreal (I was only sixteen when I was applying to graduate) and that the only pastry schools in the area were either French or in Ontario. So due to the fact that I was apprehensive about leaving the Fam., and the fact that I am so not confident in my French to undertake such a commitment as going to school and learning in French, I decided not to. Even though I no longer want to be a professional pastry chef, does not mean that I would not like to at least attend a pastry school and learn the trade. Who knows, if the publishing world ever falls apart, at least then I'd be able to fall back on my love of all things ooey gooey and delicious : D
4. I cannot live without books. I have to have a book on me at all times, and if a purse is not big enough to hold a book, I do not buy it. Books are my life and I'd go completely psycho witch crazy without them. As of late. Okay fine, as of the last four years, I have been on a strict diet of Romance novels with a heavy dose of Paranormal added ; ) With authors like J.R. Ward, Anya Bast, Rhyannon Byrd and Sherrilyn Kenyon gracing my bookshelves as well as tons of others. I just LOVE them! There is just something about a strong cast of characters and a good story that puts me in a good mood and makes me unable to tear myself away from a book. The added sex scenes are definitely a plus but not the only reason to read a Romance novel. They are not all mushy and trashy. Yes, there are dirty and unrealistic scenarios in a lot of the books, with the whole caveman attitude seem hot and desirable, but the heroines of a lot of these novels are also, in most cases, head strong and determined types of the every day career woman. I started off reading Historical Romance novels set in the Highlands of Scotland, and while I will never turn down the chance of reading about a brawny Scotsman with warbraids and a Kilt, there is just something about the Paranormal world of vampires, weres, shapeshifters and Fae that really takes a girl out of her reality and puts her somewhere incredible :)
5. I have a huge thing for guys with Blue eyes. I used to go for the whole tall blonde and handsome thing, but I've realized that it really doesn't matter if the guy is tall or short, blonde or brown, muscular or skinny, etc. Just as long as he has blue eyes, I am one happy woman. I don't really understand it myself, but blues eyes just have this power over me that make my brain stop working and my knees get weak. It's really embarrassing actually. And while I adore Green eyes, there is just something about guys with blue eyes that makes me just sit up and purr. Not literally but you get it.
6. I am a true Gemini, in like every sense of the world. I have at least two personalities and more than likely more. But I am not two faced. I will tell it like it is to anyone and everyone whether they like it or not. I am both brutally honest and outgoing, and shy and recluse at the same time. Or, more technically, at different times. I don't like having these two different personalities, and cannot control either of them very well. One minute I can be this carefree and vibrant person and then in the next moment I become all closed off, shy and defenseless person who cowers at every possible moment. It is ridiculous. Pure and Simple. But C'est la Vie. and I've learned to semi-deal with it.
7. I love Broadway Musicals. I think this stems from my love and admiration of The Wizard of Oz. But ever since high school I've loved musicals. I have seen Cats preformed live two or three times, and have watched the television performance on PBS, my VHS and DVD tons of times. (I love Victoria, the pure White Cat) I have also watched Rent, Chicago, Jesus Christ Superstar, and The Rocky Horror Picture Show on TV and DVD. I have listened to Ragtime, Phantom of the Opera, Les Miserables, Evita, The Producers and almost everything that Andrew Lloyd Weber had a hand in creating. And I love television shows like Glee that emphasis the importance of Music and musicals in everyday life. I have yet, unfortunately, gotten to actually go to Broadway and watch a Musical be performed there, opting instead to watch Cats be performed at Place des arts here in Mtl. But I dream of going to NYC and watching Wicked and many other musicals one day in the not so far off future :)
8. My favourite actor is Adam Sandler. I know it sounds crazy, but I really enjoy watching him in movies. I have actually seen something like 80% of all the movies he has acted in. With 50 First Dates (co-starring Drew Barrymore and Sean Astin) being my all time fave. But I also just watched his movie with Jennifer Aniston, Just Go With It, and that was simply amazing. And it was actually through that movie that I realized that I actually seek out and enjoy anything to do with Adam Sandler. He not only makes me laugh a whole bunch, but I also love the happy endings, and romance that he brings to his comedy films. I also love how he is able to work with just about anyone and make the relationship believable and chemistry shine. I am totally looking forward to watching Zookeeper that is coming out soon, if it isn't already, in which Sandler voices the character of a Monkey. And his up coming movie (out June 15th 2012) called "I Hate You, Dad " in which he stars alongside Leighton Meester, and Susan Surandon, with Milo Ventimiglia, Andy Samberg, Ian Ziering and Vanilla Ice also included in the cast.
9. I still, to this day, sleep with a teddy bear. Actually, I have to sleep with two Doodle bears. One I got when I was twelve from my God-father, who I named DJ. And the other I stole from my sister, who was throwing it out anyway, which my cousins named Mr. Bear. If I do not have them to cuddle with, I go stir crazy and cannot sleep. Which I realize may seem childish and a bit obsessive, but I can't help it. I also understand that when I get to the point in my life where I have to start sharing my bed with a significant other, my whole obsession with the bears may cause problems, but my answer to that is, I'll hit that bridge when I come to it and not before lol
And Finally
10. Blood, guts, gore etc. makes me hungry. While most people turn away from the television or movie screen whenever something bloody or gory comes to the foreground, and I will admit I am a tad bit squeamish myself at times, I usually just get a craving for food. Usually a hamburger or even just chips. I usually try to deny these cravings but every once and awhile I give in. This fact baffles my family, because I am able to sit through shows like CSI, True Blood, Criminal Minds and Bones, as well as doctor shows like Grey's Anatomy, where blood is a everyday occurrence, and the standing rule is more guts more blood, more brutality equals higher ratings. I am able to sit through all of that, where any normal person will want to lose their lunch, and here I am hungry or even eating. I also, this past winter semester, sat through a two hour lecture on cannibalism and ritual blood sacrificing in the Greek Bronze Age, eating an apple during the lecture, and had to go over to McDo's after the class to grab a Cheese burger after the lecture. Dad says that I'm a sick individual, I just say that I've been desensitized to all things blood guts and gore and just associate it all with food.
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So there we have it. 10 Things No One, or well actually not many people, Know About Me. I hope you all enjoyed reading as much as I enjoyed writing. I've learned a lot about myself this past week through these posts and some deep internal thinking and monologue-ing. And I would strongly suggest that anyone, and everyone, try to get to know themselves a bit better. Mostly because if you do not know everything about yourself, how can you be honest with those you care about who do want to know all about you.
Wishing you all tons of Peace, Love and Happiness :)
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